Management..underway Engineering Zero, Profiling Zero..

Sigh sigh Sigh... I have been feeling excessively moody these couple of weeks. Nonetheless I am Happy to be part of an organization. To belong to a clan, a family...is fantastic. Of course its nice to have an occasional wanderlust...but at least after so long I am learning to work together again.

I believe this will be the most overviewic post ever in these few months. Looking back three months, and see how much I have achieved, I am glad that I have gone this far. For three months I've been ...A warrior, a wanderer, a lover, a worker, an author, so much in such a short time... Im glad I am living up to my resolutions....

looking forward to the rest of the year... More to come more to see...hopefully....no/small sine waves...As long as I play the rhythm I can pace and help everyone else...

Revelations of Three....333 Half the devil...

Today 30/3/2007...I have been seeing many 3s around.

1) At work, We had three meetings today.
2) Had lunch with three Judges of the Magistrate
3) three Cats waited for some of my fish while having dinner
4) Mc Donald's total of 2 hot milos and 1 apple pie (3 items) came up to RM7.77
5) Had dealings with Three departments as well... (MIS, Admin and HR)

333 thats my number buahaha

The life of the Three is not to be succumbed by orders and mindless follows, and the God-like power to ruthlessly Rule over your minions. The Path of Three is the intermediate between heaven and Earth, between lead and follow, balance between offensive stance and defensive. It is the gentle lead that men follow, the shoulder that bears the weight with your friends, and the Voice that is heard by the Gods.

But... the Three is also doomed to live a life of three. Never to have his heart for himself as he lives for the happiness of others. To save those around him from damnation while sacrificing himself as a scapegoat. As a tree is one that gives life by living with the Earth's water and the Heaven's rays. So is the Three who needs the support and affirmation of his interacts.

Trius Tries TanChong...

Hi ppl... the Happygolucky Travelbug, WanderLust, Extra Virgin Fresh Grad boy...is now working for Tan Chong Motors Assembly. Official Distributor and assembler of NISSAN in Malaysia. Everyone seem to know that like its Old news. I only knew about it just before I applied.

I don't even know what NISSAN has for cars. I only know Skyline.

But Check this out..Be in the plant by 7.30...morning exercise, class room meetings, Canteens , Uniforms, bell rings, 30 mins recess, 30 mins Lunches save for Fridays those are 1 and a half hours break. Finish at 435.

But the pay is alright ...1650 per month plus 350 transport fees. Its cool cause i live like 10 mins away.

What do I do? My title is Executive level - Maintenance Engineer. But what do I do? WHat are my responsibilities?

1) Create schedule for every month for my supervisors to assign his fitters.
2) taking care of certain equipment failures related to Plant and facilities except paint shop
3) Maintaining the Engineering Store
4) ISO standards of calibration
5) Toxic waste management
6) JKKP certs

and many more...Im the mediators between The managers and my supervisor...yes I talk to the gods and discuss issues with my people. Dem Im between Heaven and Earth...like Mechanical and Electronics,...in the middle of the road....thank god im not involve with electrical this time.

Just got my Pay slip on the 28th of This month. My first Pay SLip!! i got half month pay cause i started on the 16th. So I get ...erm883.25 after EPF deduction.... Yay!! have to save money first if not...sure sii liao ..when my mom retires in July...Then I'll be the Sole bread earner of the family..<2k for three ppl....sniff sniff..
lucky no rent..

But only for now..

(8) For now theres Life,
Only for now,
For now theres Love!
Only for now,
For now theres work!
For now theres Happiness!

But Only for now!
For now theres DIscomfort!
Only for now!
For now theres friendship!

Only for now! (SEX!)
Is only for Now (UR HAIR!)
Is only for NOW (GEORGE BUSH!)
Is only for noww,

Dont stress
relax
let life roll off
ur back
except for death and paying taxes everything in life..
is only for now...(each time u smile...)
only for now (it will only last a while..)
only for now (life may be scary)
only for now (but its only temporary)...

Everything in life.....is only for...now.....(8)

UNCLE FREDDIE'S 60th B-dAY! SONGS!! XDD

I would like to share a song that they made for Aunt Shyan to sing to Uncle Freddie. Its sung with the tune of 'OH CAROL'

And here is goes

OH Freddie
==========
Oh Freddie,
mana lu mau cari?
Saya di sini
In my lingerie...

O hug me
jangan lah be shy
Go like Mat Rempit
Don't care mat skodeng spy

Darling-cannot-wait-a-minute longer
'Coz i love you so
Just like your pasta
bout to melt and go
saya sudah tunggu banyak lama
jangan touch & Go
Oh Freddie
I'm still waiting for you, oo oo oo

speak:
come freddie..
rasalah Stephie's Delight,
makan satu kali,
mahu every night

Darling cannot wait a minute longer
drink your tongkat Ali
Dont pakai sarong
gives you instant chi
Kama Sutra chocolate saya kasi
b'rapa kali satu hari
Oh Freddie
I'm still hungry for you.

Lokong there'll only be one Freddie
Freddie x3
Lets have a quickie
Come to Stephanie
Kama sutra chocolate lagi kasi
pussy x 3
oh freddie
I'm ready for you, oo oo oo (chang chang chang)

XXXXDDDDD

Lyrics..: What do you do when ur dating a blogger?

Thanks to technology, now there's e-communities, e-celebrities, some even get -hitched in MMORPGs (mostly men online role playing as girls..according to kijin). And then we've got the high and mighty e-celebrities that are usually consist of e-journalist known as bloggers.

So what if you get entangled with one. How would you feel if u were dating a celebrity? Or in this case a blogger. What would U do if U were dating a blogger?

What do you do when you're dating a blogger?
=================================
(Sung to the tune of 'What do you do with a B A in English?' from the Adult Musical 'Avenue Q')

What do you do when
you're dating a blogger?
what is my life going to be?
with so many blog-fans
and plenty of admirants
could tear up your
heart completely.

I can't say I'm home yet
'cause I have no job yet
This blogger's one hell of a date..
But somehow i can't shake
this feeling we might make
it through to the fi-nal base..

bwahaha my take on christianity..though i'm not...

Let us recap what as happened since the past decade. Ever since the book that changed the world's perspective (no not that one...the more recent one). The grounds of which Christianity of which started oh so long ago were starting to be questioned more courage. I mean there has always been doubts amongst religions, one say this one is better, that one is complete compared to, who the hell did he do that? So let us take it one step at a time.

1) What is religion and how in the name of history has it been established?

Religion is a body of which a supreme being (poly or mono) is stated above it's followers and is used to govern the people from wrong doings. This could either be by fear, promise of liberation, or a better life. The Aztecs used fear and sacrifices to govern the people's needs, a good harvest, less famine, and a victory in war. Taoism used the elements and harmony and used stories of heroes who overcame obstacles as role models for the people. Of course being the humble and 'follow your elder's' society, these role models soon became idols and legends and finally deities.

Now if you put it into context, the latter's concept put into the middle east say Jerusalem. In a time where many soothsayers marketed their prophet-hood. It is like tourist shopping in the night market. If you don't be cautious, you'll buy everything. So people tend to be more cautious in choosing a club....i mean religion. They would question everything until they are impressed with something they can never explain. Like magic.

2) Context of JC's legacy

JC's legacy started from his mother. In a society where prostitutes are looked down at, virgin births are sometimes 'misinterpreted' as raped or lay-claim victims. With so many Roman Soldiers in shining armor, one can easily be chosen for fornication. So with a virgin pregnancy, ones reputation can be easily 'mistaken'.

In this sense, JC was born a bastard son, his foster father Joseph not being his own would have cared for him more as a friend a stepfather that could never replace his own. Thus, JC was brought up like any other American remarried mother would. He would be more matured and independent person. Today, you can clearly see that children with a missing parent would be stronger compared to one with everything.

His affinity to create things suggested that he was a creative individual and an action oriented person as well. The Will was strong in him as God had intended.

There is a missing link in the bible that does not explain a section of his life as he disappeared from records until his return when he was about 30. There is a record (not sure how true) that during that time, in India, there was a holyman who came to study the sutras of India before returning.

It could be that he was looking for his destiny..no matter how much you may deny it. But My argument is that, what ever he taught when he returned was very much in context of the dharma sutras that had already been written hundreds of years before his time in India.

Back then, India was a thriving place, filled with Bharmans and holyman who claimed magic and miracles. Snake charmers, people who stick their skins with Kavadis and and come out without a scratch.

The important thing is, JC returned a person with an enlightened mind, one which could not be wavered for it was true and law. Men of that age in Jerusalem did not have the background of scientists and therefore explaining the laws of nature and the rule of action and reaction was simply out of the question. JC had to try a different method. One that had already been used in China and India. Overcoming obstacles, healing with touch and solving problems. But because of the people's different perspective, he was not idolized as a deity but respected as one with no limit of kindness.

He was selfless, gave unconditional love to everyone, even the prostitutes which were considered filthy(coincidence? i'll leave it to you). He was a true William Wallace who fought to save mankind from destroying themselves. For he knew more than everyone else. He knew that sin (note the spelling and connection to the 'sine wave') was the action that would cause the destruction of the actor during the downfall of reaction.

When he was crossed, the whole community shattered at the loss of their hero. When he was brought down and away, those who was him missing, thought he had been claimed by God. This gave the community something to believe, an ultimate example of what good could give to man. Whether JC died on the cross or survived it as recent records show, his followers intended to keep the miracle alive.

3) So what is your point?

Mormons are disliked by many subdivisions of Christianity as they depict a new prophet who used Aztec pieces to read the new orders of God. But no matter how much they defer, the Mormons are happy and live a fantastic live. So is it wrong to believe in a 'lie' if it gives out good vibes anyway? What if we put what the Mormons are doing to the context of the Greater Christianity? and Christianity the rest of the world?

No, it is not wrong, however, one must understand that even if you know what is right and wrong, one must never talk bad about another's religion. You could ask about the details and question it, but never condemn it's mechanics for it is their Will to follow.

4) What if its true? What would you do?

All my life, I have had the bestest of friends who are Christian. Which is why I know a bit of Christianity. I almost wanted to convert to Catholic when I was in 1st grade. But now after so long, I realize that it is not fair for me to choose a path and limit myself into a gang. Even if it saves my soul from damnation. It is not the savior's path. Therefore, I strive to stay on earth or in hell until the last souls are liberated to heaven, maybe bring good ol Lucifer back to his creator.

AVenue Q

I bought the soundtrack on Avenue Q: The Musical....its fantastic....great and funny lyrics
'Internet is for Porn', 'Schadenfreude', 'It sucks to be me', 'Everyone's a little bit racist' among the songs that were around. There was one that was kinda nice to listen to...

There's a Fine, Fine Line Lyrics
Kate Monster:
There's a fine, fine line between a lover and a friend;
There's a fine, fine line between reality and pretend;
And you never know 'til you reach the top if it was worth the uphill climb.

There's a fine, fine line between love
And a waste of time.

There's a fine, fine line between a fairy tale and a lie;
And there's a fine, fine line between "You're wonderful" and "Goodbye."
I guess if someone doesn't love you back it isn't such a crime,
But there's a fine, fine line between love
And a waste of your time.

And I don't have the time to waste on you anymore.
I don't think that you even know what you're looking for.
For my own sanity, I've got to close the door
And walk away...
Oh...

There's a fine, fine line between together and not
And there's a fine, fine line between what you wanted and what you got.
You gotta go after the things you want while you're still in your prime...

There's a fine, fine line between love
And a waste of time.

Is it just me or Rats in particular...?

I return from a long vacation, filled with networking, adventure and well...wanderlust. But As I returned, a sense of turmoil began ravaging my body. As such power is expelled from the vessel, the vessel will experience emptiness in return.

A weakness that makes one sensitive by touch ...as well as mind. It made me wonder deep in thought of how my life has gone and what I have achieved so far...

I have always been living in the shadows of others. Uncles and aunts always know me by my brother's name or relate me to him. I am always second and below, never first in school or running as I either did not want fame or could not achieve it at all. And when I do win, it is because the first person forfeited. Everything in my life, from the clothes to the perks that I enjoy is not originally worked by me, or given for me. I am always second in line, what RPGers know as 'the son of a Hero'.

Don't get me wrong, I enjoy the perks and my life,I have lived an immortals life, but it pains me to know that I will always get things not under my own accord.

And believe me i've tried. Learning musical instruments, self-defense courses, everything I've tried never usually finishes. Will I be able to achieve something that I can be proud of? When can I be respected as myself and not be the shadow of someone else?

I sit here this morning suffering a massive jetlag, drained to the bone, unable to move or sleep... and so I do what I can only do, write, write like the confused person unable to choose between blood and the freshest mountain water ever tasted. Will there be a time that I can call one 'my own and know that it is no one elses?

Or perhaps the change of mindset should start from inside me? to accept graciously everything that comes into life.

'An immortal is measured not by how long he lived (That is just absurd), but by his capacity to love.' This is explained in the song by Queen 'Who wants to live forever'. To live in a world of mortals. If you give your heart to one, he/she will definitely grow old and die. But as an immortal, you will live on. And there will come a time where you can no longer bare loving another, as the feeling of losing one's heart again and again will drive one mad. You would no longer want the perk of living forever, even if it gives you the chance to see the future. You will no longer want to be indestructible for you know that a world without love is meaningless.

Even as a mortal, it pains to see a love one leave the world. For you know that you will miss the person. Some would wish they'd never met or loved as it would ease the pain or have no pain at all. Others would cherish the time that one lived but would foreva be in one's memory and never return.

I for one am not good at mind games and don't know how to react to traps. And so I have lived a cautious life, never giving my heart out to anyone. In return, I lived a nomadic life without purpose and commitment. But because of that, I developed a keen eye on things, tricks and trades by observation. With one clue, I can tell that something is wrong. Problem is, I don't know what to do with it. So I usually put a blind eye and act I never saw anything. Its always best for everyone. Usually everyone but me.

My journey to Australia, made me realize that I had to come out of the shell and be burnt. I already have, but can I withstand this wildfire that I have for so long been protected from? I will continue...to see what happens, But I don't know how well I can take this...but I guess I have to start somewhere.

Another strange dream...

This dream started with a scream....of my nephews...and then a presence of my mom walking into the room...I tried getting myself up but, I was still drowned in sleep. Eventually I got up did a lil chatting and slept back again...

I just got off the plane and was looking for the dark lord when I arrived at the resort by car. It seemed like a double story house with a fantastic kitchen and a wooden railing upwards. I was told that the darklord was at the jetty sailing. When I got there, there were 3 water vehicles in the shape of killer whales which swam really fast. Instead of The DArklord who emerged from the water crafts, two other high school mates of mine were there.

They told me that the darklord was in the building next to the lake. And so I went up to the place and found the darklord. One invention was the spiral steps that reconstructs itself from a rack.

"The East and West ends are good investments" he said.

I found myself in a car driving back, and then trying to pump some gas at shell.

What does it mean? too much imagination...(exactly hahhaa)

Beast foreva stays a beast

Spent a day shopping for baby clothes and accessories with a bad headache. It got me thinking of what a monster I have become...Around me, I see love everywhere, my brother and sister in law, their married friends, their children, my nephews, every deed by everyone showering their love.

Adam thought me over the baby swing, that in order for the swing to work it's wonders, you must let go. I have been so obsessed in hooking up with the one i care so much about, I have forgotten why i didn't hook up in the first place.

The greatest love one could ever give is the selfless and unconditional happiness for the other. So many years I have denied myself cardinal pleasures of being in love....I can barely feel anymore. I have but weeks before I no longer able to stand out and do something for my own benefit and future...

This maybe the headache talking, but I will never be able to think straight again, I'm skewed by lust gluttony and sloth, this is my final gasp for oxygen... before I lie back and wait for the water to overwhelm and drown me...

haha stupid rants again....bloody headache...

Chinese New YEar In Canton, USA

mmm good morning, its 0727 in Canton, Michigan. Had one of the wierdest yet bestest dreams I could ever have. I was in a school kind of place, run by samurai overlords. We had to escape from this place without being seen. After much running on roofs, hanging on window ledges, and hiding ontop of exhaust air ducts on the ceilings. I finally manage to escape.

There were other people as well, and when I returned to the facility to rescue another, it was in the shape of a shopping mall. There were two levels down ant about 3 above me. It was perceived to be a Jaya Jusco branch.

Before long, I was in the middle of a stadium trying to save the world from falling black looking asteroids.

Through out this dream i woke up a couple of times hence the difference in scenario...

I was in a room That seemed to be a holy place of some sort. A girl who helped me before in the previous dreams was in trouble. Her husband has just died leaving no will. She is the 3rd and last wife who has bore him no children so far. 1st and 2nd have children and would happily ditch her as they are 'best friends foreva'..somehow tat phrase was mentioned.

So anyway there was a person who wanted to walk out, but then a smelly old homeless stood and wished to walk in. In shock the guy accidentally presses the close button inhibitting the homeless to come in. Feeling wrong for it was a house of charity and compassion, we rushed to open the door. Unfortunately, all we could find was a black gorilla leaving the scene. We chased the gorrilla and ended up in a school bus. Looking out to our left hand side, we seeked the gorilla.

But all we saw was a brown cloaked Holyman, 2 3-toed sloths. Soon we gave up, and I began chatting with B. We talked about hols plans in a couple of months. We joked and laughed. A kid left a bus...I somehow moved to the front of the bus with my friend as we started holding hands. The kids didn't like the 13-pg stuff and started poking my right side everytime i turned away. I tried placing a pillow to protect my side but it was in vain. Soon 4 of them stood up wanting to leave the bus. But they kept threatening to poke. And then as another left the bus, I woke up.

I know it doesn't seem like it maked any sense, But I have not had such an intricate dream for a while. Many things that I wanted to say to my friend, I did, to me it was the most wonderful Dream I have had this decade... packed with action, suspense, romance, and mystery... or am i just thinking too much?

anyway hope what i did will come to be reality...Happy Chinese Year 2007,,...Golden Pig

HAPPY VALENTINES!!! PPL

Now usually I spend valentines, text messaging ppl's girlfriends to wish them Happy Vals. But this year is different...something has changed...both in me and a special someone...

Im like, not in Malaysia and my phone is on Roaming. To tell you the truth, One MUST spend at least 1 valentines in Europe! The atmosphere is just astounding! Guys waiting for girls with roses in their hands. Couples meeting up, hugging kissing necking.. high embraces, shoulder embraces, lower embraces... Hugging each other for warmth...so romantic.. Im in love with the way they do things here. I would like just once, to take my love one here...to meet up, go for a lovely dinner somewhere, and then watch a play or a musical...truly magnificent. And later in the night, we take a long stroll down to our hotel, pushing her up against the wall and necking her before whispering some giggles and sugar into her ears. Then we head up to our room, make out a lil, mouthing 'I love u's every moment our mouths partially part and then cuddle in bed until the morning break.

Imagine walking along rivers and bridges, admiring, the scenery and each other's company. Amsterdam, London, Venice, or Enjoying the night on top of the Empire State Building or underneath the Eiffel Tower. If a girl did that to me, I'd just eat her alive...ravaging every single inch of her skin. Forgive me for being a Taurus, I just so enjoy the beauty of things.

Unfortunately,
this Valentine, I spent the evening with a guy friend...not to say anything but its kinda sad having dinner with someone of the same sex preference as you on Valentines day unless of course you're taken and are millions of yards away from your partner, which is the case. But this is still wrong. We had dinner at Misato's waiting for about 30 mins, eating, went for a walk and then a play...and ended up sleeping at his place. NOW do you get how sad this is?

Hello Trials of 2007

Hi folks, welcome back...Now time for new resolutions,

1) Learn to have empathy
2) Learn to be capable
3) Learn to be bad...

To tackle the first empathy can only be done by having a relationship with another and develop a connection where you know what the other wants. Getting a Girlfriend is one, Getting a job is another.

Both allows the 2nd resolution to develop as well. But the 3rd can give variable results for both. Unfortunately since Im traveling, getting a job was out of the question.

Recently however, I met up with a dear friend...and we kicked off some how... I still am blur until today... but I would like to believe we kicked off...

The Trial?
It was 2 days before my departure for UK and even more alarmng valentines is around the corner!! Oh Goodness am I the worst Boyfriend or wat? I managed to arrange something last minute, but I dunno whether it will work. I dont have the cash to send her flowers...as i keep thinking flowers are like the least practical thing to be given as a handgift...its like leasing a property from nature...and then after 3 days your 300 dollar investment...goes down the well compost heap

Please forgive my practical thinking, but i was brought up in a family that had to think twice before upgrading a computer, or change a new handphone. Tats probably why, I've never been hitched.

Apart from that I have been given a mission. To learn wat i can in the working world. So tat in 2 years time, the Dark lord shall gather his minions, and the Dark Empire shall rise to conquer Kayelle city!!

okay goodnite

I guess this is goodbye...

Dear readers (no matter how few),

I guess the last post didnt really turn out that well as a Goodbye entry at all. In truth, I was never really good at saying those words truthfully. Probably because I never really wanted to say them.

These two years of living in Australia, and four years in Monash, have been the BEST years of my life. I really mean that. I have learnt so much, gained so much, missed so much and above all Loved so much. And even though I have suffered trauma, sorrow, hate and politics; I never regretted being apart of them. I am proud to wear what I have experienced with great pride.

To me, Melbourne was a good 'home course' for me. With such crisped environments, it thought me the basics of living without the cloud of corruption. Here everything was clear, and effective, cause and effects were understandable even up to ant management.

But most importantly were the people that touched my life. Everyone, from people who uttered a light raise of the eyebrow, to great friends who I live with, to those who appreciate what I do, the lady that showed me that materialistic things were not everything, and to my darling (KL,Malaysia) who supported me through the years. Please know that even though I may seem cold-fished and speechless, it is because what you have done for me is beyond what I can say or describe.

And with relations to what you have done for me, I would like to apologise for being difficult to anyone for any reason that you were not happy about me. It maybe for my strange taste of music, malleable brain for movies, or my obsession with 86s or wooden sticks. If any of these were a nuisance to you, I ask for you to forgive me. I pray that I am able to better myself, no matter how slow but do tell.

Last but not least, to the tenants of Tenten Bayview Avenue 2006, Dinner group of Bayview Avenue, Party members, Chefs, drinks providers, doritos bringers, and even sleeping members; and The Tenten Bayview Monument itself...Thank you so much for having me as part of your life. The things Ive learnt, the people Ive met, The reason of me being a better person is because of you! I Love you all (no matter how politically incorrect for half of you), Thanking for Making The Difference in me.

As this entry comes to a close, so shall this blog become an archive for all the "master piece" of my rants in the last year come to a close. I wish this to be a memory that I can come back and laugh at "Hey can you believe how Fing stressed up I was about the nut and bolt not fitting, if I only knew then that I'd have to screw thousands of them every day for the rest of my life hah ah aha". Thank you blogreaders (no matter how many you are) for staying in touch. Thnx for being my friend... good....by...hope to meet you in the future....

Thus ends the epic Chapter of the Trials of Trius

Time, Torment, and Torture. These were the three Trials Trius had to overcome. And then was the final test. One that could tear down Trius' Ideals forever...

These trials were not shallow, it brought Trius' mind of the past, present and the future together. One Ideal to realize his true fate (or what you optimists know as .... Destiny).

Through thick and thin, Trius has always thought that failure was not an option. That it was dishonorable to fail. Closing his mind from failure, he learnt nothing. The later it took to fail, the larger the consequence would become. Realizing that, he made a protective shell a second ego that made others think he was but a useless person, one who would be acceptable to fail. But in his mind, he was losing his identity.

Then came the present - 2 years. He wanted but was untouchable. But there was a force that was trying to teach him. Other side trials came and swept him off balance. He felt his first failure. But his unconcious promise to Travel Down under kept him from giving up made a difference. And the hope that was thought dashed...lived again.

Present dAy,

He wasnted but was just beyond his grasp. But there was a force that again tried to teach him. He felt his second failure. But his unconcious Will to keep his parent's schedule again kept him from giving up. It made a difference.....And the hope that was thought dashed...once again return.

So what is this theme of Trius' destiny. A destiny chosen even before the realization of his name. Trius....forever trying....no matter what. Hope no matter how bleak, will always exist if we don't give up, keep trying keep doing and success will follow!

This is his curse, his destiny, to try twice to succeed. And one day, we would finally be able to grasp the untouchable...

As this Chapter draws to a close... I would like to thank everyone for reading my ramblings, rantings, antics, and yet support me time and time again. I Love you all....

Next Life chapter ... http://triustravels.blogspot.com

Trius heads to the Light...and See's JigSaw - Part 2

November 30 came... the powersaw sliced through the his throat like butter. Gagging he pressed the play button of the tape recorder that he had in his hand.

"Hello Just,

If you are hearing this, then I must be dead. And you have just doomed yourself into another test. If you could have just forgiven me. Now you must face a new test that will test your wits.

Justin, there is just one more game I would like to play. Monday there will be a final paper, a supplimentary paper that you must take. Take this and pass, and you will be able to graduate in time for Christmas.

However, fail and you will have to retake the entirely new modification of exams that will last till the end of next year. You will lose your already withered wings to fly, and the Will of your parents to keep you afloat.

The Choice is in your hands Justin, in your hands!"

ARGH!! I slammed my hands on his already immovable abdomen.

"SCREW THIS!! Even if I become an undergraduate for the rest of my life! I'll definately break free and be a Leader!! I am not afraid !!! BRING IT ON!!!"

"Assuming that you accept this challenge, you will go to Room G15/31 and do the test that will commence at 9.15 am on the 4th of December. Study well..."

Trius Trembles

Tis' mere hours till the answer to wether or not Trius will be able to be free himself from his first test. His entire life has flashed over and over again through his mind. A pattern finally showed. It has happened before again and again as if cursed with the same loop of fate.

1) Everytime Trius sets himself to work hard, half way through, an easier option appears and the steam is let off in relief with the new and better option.

2) Everytime Trius meets an untouchable chick, he is bound to get in trouble with a test the next semester, usually something related to math.

3) Trius is a total whimp...

4) Trius grows in strength in the south but lose independence and determination when he returns to his homeland.

5) Trius never completed his training, but instead merged wat he learnt together.

These are the five main characteristics that has haunted Trius for half a decade, must have been the Brahman in Nepal that gave me the red dot on my forehead and I refused to pay cause i had no change.

THe question now is, will I graduate and continue my journey to the far lands?

Or will fate hold me back forcing me to turn to the dark side of attachment?

Trius heads towards the Light...and See's JigSaw!

"Hello Just,

I want to play a game. The rules are simple, Get through the four mazes alive and you will be free to go. Each maze is unique. You have four years to complete them. Once the time is up, you will cease to exist. Imagine, everyone you know, everyone you love no longer acknowledging your existence. Can you live with that? Let the Game begin.

Oh did I mention, your lecturer will be Dr. Abdul Mazid."

Four years later. I stand before a medical bed. My torturer for four years lying on it. I have waited forever for this moment. Every single day I have thought of killing him. And now I had the chance.

"Hello Just," He whispered as his turned to me, so fragile and helpless. "I want to play a game. One final test, I am sorry for what i have done to you. On the counter is an assortment of vicarious tools of which you can use to kill me. Or if you can truly forgive the man who has caused you all this pain and suffering. You can leave and take your chances in the outside world as a new man,"

I browsed at the assortment of power tools on the counter. Powerdrills, deburrers, sharp pointy things. I came to realise that he was totally under my mercy. I had nothing to lose except my chance to kill the man I hate. Or could there?

"This is your last chance. Just, walk away, our fates are linked. Forgive and let live," What the hell was he to threaten me with such a statement. If he died, Nothing else would matter. Or would it? Did he know something that I did not? "Please Just do this for yourself," He pleaded.

"I forgive you," I heard my rageful mouth utter. I grabbed a large power saw and started it up. He starred at me offering his fragile neck. Was I to give in to my hate and strike down this unarmed man. Completing my fate and journey to the Dark side? The Answer....November 30th...

Trius finds the darkness of light....

Wish my thesis was about pagan lore and all those interesting stuff. I would love to know those stuff so much. I came across an article while researching for my book. Biblical punishments in Hell.

Broken Pride on the Wheel,

Placed in freezing water to calm the Envy,

Dismember Anger Alive,

Thrown into Snake Pits to cure Sloth,

Put in pots of boiling oil to flush Greed,

eat rats, toads and snakes to Stop Gluttony with food poisoning,

and Smothered in Fire and Brimstone to burnout Lust.

Now check it out, they all make sense unless you head to Asia.

In Asia, these would be considered Heaven.

Broken on the Wheel, sounds like Dominatrix shit to me. Placed in freezing water? If David Blaine could do that, Id be pretty impressed with him too. Dismembered alive, well no fight there. Snake pits well u'd be shot into fame too if u had a life of a Zoo keeper. Boiling Pots of oil, if u can parade your Kungfu skills in the street with that, you'd get some money too.

Now these two, Gluttony and Lust. If you mix them together you'd get a pretty Good Feast in Asia. Ppl pay Big Bucks for delicacies like these. Beggar's Rat, Toad and Snake...mmmm YUM!!

I'll continue serving as the Blackhole, but I'll start working on my lust to get a time of my life...lol

Trius' outlook for Malaysia Rant

Hey guys,

Yea u guessed it right,

Its ranting time.

Come to think of it, i never really needed to rant. But I guess ppl change, and I changed from a blue book diary to a black-page blog.

"Captain's Blog Stardate 1234567.20 with 2 signficant figures. went to bambi.com this morning in hopes of cute deers, skunks and rabbits but was greeted by cats and beavers instead."
tats jus a lil joke, i tell it everytime.

Now, every once in a while (usually exam periods during the process of studying) a totally unrelated thought starts in my head. It grows out of proportion and i end up losing my concentration. Usually I dismiss the thoughts, but it keeps coming back. Thus why i started blogging.

This time its about the future. Our future. Many nations have projected a mission statement, Malaysia's Vision 2020, AUstralia's 2026, God's Apocalypse. All giving hope and fear to the world. Developed countries such as Australia with an organised system will have no real problem working towards their goal.

But what of Malaysia? What is the future of Malaysia? Yes we have a mission statement. But with our current attitude, will our leaders be able lead Malaysia to the right direction. In my life time I have seen many growing leaders, all who are 100% capable of turning Malaysia's fate for the better. Martin Ooi, Rowan Soh, Chew Eu Jin, and many more who are ready to be there for our country. But is Malaysia ready for them?

'A good Leader is one who has good followers'. Some wise guy(man) said that. And from what I have seen in my time in Monash, it reigns true. A leader can only do so much, one requires arms and feet to make thoughts actions. And that is what Malaysia lacks. Consistent followers.
Now Malaysia is caught between three generations, The headstrong Merdeka men, the slacking sons of heros, and the upcoming leaders of men. The ones who hold dear to the strong values are dying out. Soon Malaysia will be filled with Good leaders with slacking followers.

There will be enough leaders, but no one who would care enough to follow. What would Malaysia be? I feel sad tat many of us who are highly educated will be shifting out from Malaysia to find a better life outside. SOme for better family environment, some for the benefits and strength in money seeing no real hope for Malaysia.

But Let us stop and think. Are we going to abandon our mother who has escaped from many tragedies, suffered from raped, torture and disgrace, went through all of this to raise us to who we are today? Are we going turn our backs on our mother tainted with corruption and politics? Or are we going to return and help our mother rise back on to her two feet?
My friends, I stand before you today, not as a leader, but as a voice of hope. I have faith in you, I have faith in Malaysia, I have faith that one day, we will not be known as the 'Tidak apa' community, but as those who raised and nursed our mother to health. 'The son becomes the father, and the father the son'.

I know that with the political mayhem and dangers that lurk in the streets. it may not be condusive for our wifes and daugthers. Yes I fear for their safety too. But that means that alot of work has to be done. From now on, all our work, all our hopes and dreams, we must channel our professions towards the betterment of our motherland. Everyone has a role, everyone is a soldier, Everyone, is a leader!