Another strange dream...

This dream started with a scream....of my nephews...and then a presence of my mom walking into the room...I tried getting myself up but, I was still drowned in sleep. Eventually I got up did a lil chatting and slept back again...

I just got off the plane and was looking for the dark lord when I arrived at the resort by car. It seemed like a double story house with a fantastic kitchen and a wooden railing upwards. I was told that the darklord was at the jetty sailing. When I got there, there were 3 water vehicles in the shape of killer whales which swam really fast. Instead of The DArklord who emerged from the water crafts, two other high school mates of mine were there.

They told me that the darklord was in the building next to the lake. And so I went up to the place and found the darklord. One invention was the spiral steps that reconstructs itself from a rack.

"The East and West ends are good investments" he said.

I found myself in a car driving back, and then trying to pump some gas at shell.

What does it mean? too much imagination...(exactly hahhaa)

Beast foreva stays a beast

Spent a day shopping for baby clothes and accessories with a bad headache. It got me thinking of what a monster I have become...Around me, I see love everywhere, my brother and sister in law, their married friends, their children, my nephews, every deed by everyone showering their love.

Adam thought me over the baby swing, that in order for the swing to work it's wonders, you must let go. I have been so obsessed in hooking up with the one i care so much about, I have forgotten why i didn't hook up in the first place.

The greatest love one could ever give is the selfless and unconditional happiness for the other. So many years I have denied myself cardinal pleasures of being in love....I can barely feel anymore. I have but weeks before I no longer able to stand out and do something for my own benefit and future...

This maybe the headache talking, but I will never be able to think straight again, I'm skewed by lust gluttony and sloth, this is my final gasp for oxygen... before I lie back and wait for the water to overwhelm and drown me...

haha stupid rants again....bloody headache...