After liberating so many problems,DMT is disheartened to see many more...

For all the things I've done for all the employees in the company, for all the times I put my head on the line for them, they push all their faults and blames back to me. I feel disheartened that they would have the heart to do this.

I've never asked them for anything in return, but a smile on their face. And they back stab me with a Corrective Action Request. (If u avid readers remember I issued a Department a Car about a month or two ago.)

At the eve of SIRIM's advance, they come back to me with this C.A.R...


Non-conformance reads "No evidence shows that the Internal Auditor Justin Ong Yu Yi have attended Internal Quality Audit Training and/or are a qualified auditor. He have conducted Internal Audit and issued C.A.R on 6/4/07"

My manager writes back In corrective action:"We will send Justin Ong Yu Yi to attend the Internal Quality Audit Training to qualify as auditor. From now on CAR will be issued by TKF on behalf of Main. Dept."

Followup detail reads "1. Justin in future will not be the auditor for calibration material (handled by TKF certified auditor)" .

This will not do..not in our company. Seriously must not practice last minute syit like this. Bad english and insults my name as well. I give my time to help my managers do things, and this is what happens. I feel like my head is cracking into 3 pieces. What is the meaning of this year? Im losing my mind, lost my heart....and im losing my soul...

I feel disheartened..I thought I could live this self-sacrificing life ...but the more I experience, the more I lose my focus...of why I started in the first place. Im going no where...the world is telling me that if I become a cold-hearted jerk, I would have better luck with everything else....I'm at the brink of believing it...I dunno wat to do...I'm on my knees, my soul curling up inside...again....